Bored + Restless

Word of the day: Nuture.

Nurturing my little back to health — thanks breastmilk.

Nurturing big emotions and witnessing my community support our children through it.

Taking space for rest.

I need so much rest. And I MISS BEING BORED. I need like two weeks vacation. No humans. Just me.

1 week in a cabin somewhere.
1 week in my home alone.

I need to get lost. Be forced to sit in my discomfort.

It’s part of my process. Truly. I need space to grieve regularly, to get lost and work through my anxiety, really connect back to myself.

It’s like motherhood makes it taboo for the need for me to take space. To get lost and find my way back. I need to work and interact with people separate from my family.

I want my own autonomy.

I must work at experiencing separation from the family. Not out of — I don’t want them, but out of I need space for the whole me.

When I’m starved of that, I wonder if that’s why couples after long periods of time choose to leave the relationship. It’s hard to give space, it’s hard to say: hey go take you, forget about me. Forget about the kids. Just go be you for a week. Connect to that person who is just you.

What I hope to find in that space is security in my soul with being just be. I hope to have aha moments around perspective on whatever stories or narratives are coming up.

There’s something after this intense year that has become exceptionally clear to me, I must experience myself away from distractions.

I need the discomfort to remember who I am, and what I want. If I don’t live that, I do not experience perspective the way I need to, and it’s a whole body experience. When I know something, I know it through and through.

The critic of “oh that’s not worth saying or sharing”, I’m learning to recognize what is the difference between the critic and intuition.

Maybe when my intuition kicks in, it’s a way of the universe is communicating to me, when my voice kicks in it’s my conscious talking, and when it’s this cranky hangry chain smoking broad chiming in it’s my judgemental critic.

Fascinating. It’s taken time to recognize the voices. The conversations happening so loud, it’s hard to hear who is talking.

Maybe that’s why I like efficiency, it cuts down the noise, energy, and time spent on the unimportant things so that I maximize the fun stuff I do. Pleasure. Joy. Expansion. That shit feels so good too.

It’s why I like to move on from things.
I don’t get joy from it anymore and want to move on.

A state of constant motion. But I like to linger and hang out for a long time. And then when I’m ready, I want to move on. But when I can’t get out from a situation I not only get cabin fever, but like a rabid wolverine. My being becomes so agitated I can’t sooth it. The dysregulation is exhausting because I’m not in my flow. And I’m trying to find ways/ use my brain power I think will work, instead of following what I want to do and let the rest fall into place.

I get scared at times where I’m not totally sure who I hear talking, and feel judged by my peers for listening to my intuition because what I want to do is against what society and how I set my life up?

Like deep deep deep down, I know when I’m following my path and when I’m not. And dude. When I’m not — I fucking know it.

I don’t know where this is going, but I know if I want to get there I need to change how I view it. I am needing a perspective shift, or shed something. It’s deep and profound. I can sense it, but it’s covered so many layers that I don’t know how to deal with them. And my perspective needs to change for me to figure out this problem. I can’t tell how far I am to figuring it out.

Authenticity in a New Cycle: Embracing Growth and Transformation

In the journey of life, we often find ourselves at the threshold of new beginnings—a new cycle filled with opportunities for growth and transformation. As we step into uncharted territories, it becomes crucial to anchor ourselves in authenticity, allowing our true selves to shine through. In this blog post, we will explore the power of authenticity in embracing personal growth and transformation. By delving into topics such as intimacy, pleasure, vulnerability, boundaries, death, birth, and rebirth, we will unravel the interconnectedness of these aspects and discover how they contribute to our authenticity. So, let's embark on this journey of self-discovery with curiosity and openness.

Embracing Authenticity:

Authenticity forms the foundation for a meaningful and fulfilling life. It is the essence of aligning our actions, thoughts, and emotions with our true selves. As individuals seeking growth and transformation, we recognize the importance of embracing our authenticity to create a life that resonates deeply with who we are.

Intimacy and Vulnerability:

Intimacy allows us to form deep connections with others, but it requires vulnerability. By exploring the connections between intimacy and authenticity, we can understand how opening ourselves up to vulnerability allows us to cultivate genuine connections and embrace our true selves.

Pleasure as a Path to Authenticity:

Often, we underestimate the power of pleasure in our lives. By embracing pleasure and understanding its connection to authenticity, we can tap into our innate desires, passions, and joys. Exploring the realms of pleasure helps us connect with our truest selves and live in alignment with our values.

Setting Boundaries for Authenticity:

Boundaries are essential for maintaining our authenticity and well-being. By establishing healthy boundaries, we protect our values, needs, and energy. We will delve into the significance of setting boundaries and how they contribute to our growth and authenticity.

Navigating Life's Transitions: Death, Birth, and Rebirth:

Life is a cycle of constant change and transformation. By embracing the natural cycles of death, birth, and rebirth, we can navigate life's transitions with grace and authenticity. We will reflect on the lessons we learn from these transformative experiences and how they shape us into more authentic versions of ourselves.

Cultivating Self-Compassion:

Authenticity thrives in an environment of self-compassion. We will explore the importance of treating ourselves with kindness and understanding as we navigate the ups and downs of growth and transformation. By practicing self-compassion, we can embrace our vulnerabilities and foster self-growth.

Authenticity in Relationships:

Authenticity plays a vital role in our relationships. We will explore how being true to ourselves allows us to form deep and meaningful connections with others. We will also discuss the balance between intimacy and autonomy within relationships, nurturing both our individuality and our connections with others.

Harnessing the Power of Ritual:

Rituals have been used throughout history as a way to honor and mark significant life transitions. By incorporating rituals into our lives, we create meaningful moments that allow us to connect with our authentic selves and embrace growth and transformation.

In the end…

Embracing authenticity in a new cycle of growth and transformation is a powerful endeavor. By exploring the connections between intimacy, pleasure, vulnerability, boundaries, death, birth, and rebirth, we open ourselves up to deeper levels of understanding and self-discovery. Through curiosity, openness, and self-compassion, we can unlock our true potential and create a life that aligns with our authentic selves. As individuals, let us embrace this journey of growth and transformation with courage and embrace our authenticity every step of the way.

Embracing the Power of Rest: Why Taking Time to Recharge is Essential for Authentic Living

In our fast-paced, productivity-driven society, the value of rest often goes unnoticed. We find ourselves caught in a never-ending cycle of busyness, striving for success and achievements. However, it is in the liberating act of embracing rest that we discover the catalyst for authentic living. Rest is not merely a pause from activity; it is a radical practice that holds the wisdom of transformation, if only we have the courage to listen. In this blog post, we will explore why taking time to recharge is essential for living authentically, as we tap into our free will, speak our truths, and passionately engage with life's cosmic dance.

Rest as a Transforming Force

Rest, often misunderstood as laziness or unproductivity, is actually a powerful agent of change. It is in the act of resting that we allow ourselves to integrate the experiences and learnings of our journey. Just as a seed requires stillness to germinate and grow, we too need moments of respite to process and assimilate our experiences. Rest is not an agitating force; it is the space where we consciously become aware of our thoughts, emotions, and desires.

By embracing rest, we tap into our sovereign power—the power to choose how we spend our time and energy. In a world that constantly demands our attention, rest becomes an act of rebellion, a declaration that our well-being and mental health are essential. When we honor our need for rest, we reclaim our agency and empower ourselves to live in alignment with our values and aspirations.

The Wisdom of Resting and Listening

Rest grants us the gift of listening—to our bodies, our minds, and the whispers of our souls. In the stillness of rest, we attune ourselves to the subtle vibrations of our being, gaining insights that may have eluded us in the busyness of everyday life. By cultivating a practice of rest, we become more conscious of our needs and desires, allowing us to make informed choices that nourish our holistic well-being.

In the act of listening, we uncover the wisdom that lies within us—the wisdom that guides us towards our true path and purpose. Rest becomes a conduit for self-discovery, a sacred space where we connect with the divine spirit that resides within us. As we surrender to the restful embrace, we awaken to the light within, illuminating our authentic selves and the path that beckons us forward.

Rest as the Grounding for Authentic Expression

Rest is not solely about physical rejuvenation; it encompasses the restoration of our mental, emotional, and spiritual faculties. When we prioritize rest, we create the necessary foundation for authentic expression. Our voices are no longer muted or diluted by exhaustion or overwhelm; instead, they resound with clarity and passion.

Through rest, we become empowered to speak our truths unhindered by societal expectations or external pressures. Rest liberates our voices from the shackles of conformity, allowing us to express ourselves with authenticity and vulnerability. It is from this place of rest that our words, actions, and creations carry a deeper resonance—a resonance that echoes the cosmic rhythms and dances in harmony with the wild nature of our souls.

The Sisterhood of Rest and Recharge

Rest is not solely an individual endeavor; it is a collective practice that weaves together the threads of sisterhood and motherhood. As women, we are intimately attuned to the rhythms of rest and replenishment. We understand the transformative power of surrendering to our own needs and nurturing ourselves, for it is from this place of inner nourishment that we can nourish others.

When we honor our need for rest, we create a ripple effect that inspires and empowers those around us to do the same.

We foster a community of conscious women who vibrate at a higher frequency—a frequency that radiates love, compassion, and authenticity. In our shared journey of rest and recharge, we reclaim our womanhood, embracing our roles as custodians of the light within, both for ourselves and for future generations.

To sum it up:

In a world that often glorifies perpetual motion and busyness, we must reclaim the radical practice of rest. Rest is not a luxury; it is a necessity for our holistic well-being and the cultivation of authentic living. As we learn to embrace rest, we tap into the wisdom that lies within, grounding ourselves in our own power, and awakening to the transformative potential that rests within every moment of stillness.

Let us liberate ourselves from the chains of incessant productivity and surrender to the catalytic force of rest. In doing so, we embark on a journey of self-discovery, empowerment, and authenticity. May we find solace in the cosmic dance of rest and rejuvenation, embracing the wild nature of our souls, and nurturing the sisterhood that amplifies the vibration of love and light within us all.